I am a failure. I have failed many times this year already, and I continue to daily. Today I slept through my two hour class even though it was at 11:30. And I slept in much later than I should have. I have a test tonight that I need to study for, but I lost an opportunity for that. I also lost an opportunity to witness to my engineering group. They are non-Christians, and today could have been the best opportunity to witness to them. But I missed it. I let life slip by me, and that is a failure. I realize it now, and it doesn't feel good. I think the reason I continue to fail and not manage my time well is because I keep trying to do it myself instead of giving control to God. He is the only one who can help me because He is the only one who has ever been perfect. A great example is King David. He sinned against the Lord when he slept with Bathsheba and killed her husband. Because of this the God killed David and Bathseba's baby. Yet through all of this David praises the Lord. When he realizes he has sinned, he worships God. And David is still considered having a heart for God.

There are repercussions for the sins we commit, but the Lord loves us no matter what. We need to praise Him because He deserves it. Our mindset needs to be like David's after he sinned when he praised the Lord and fasted. He knew it was useless, but he wanted to give God credit. And even though this son died, he had another one with Bathsheba, one named Solomon. And we know about Solomon. He was loved by the Lord and he was given supernatural wisdom. 

So, good can come from our mistakes. Without this mistake, Solomon might not have been born. We don't know God's plan; we can only try to understand it when it happens. 

When I am in a time of trouble and failure, I will seek to praise the One who gives me life. Like Psalms 62 says, "My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge." Trust in the Lord because he will lead you out of this failure. Persevere because He makes it worth it in the end.

Love,

Brian